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The Letter

My life keeps getting more and more interesting every minute. I’m a massive fan of the movie Immortal Beloved it’s about the life of Beethoven. There are so many parts of the film I love the actor Gary Oldman did a fantastic job. Gary Oldman brought the movie to life he’s a brilliant actor underrated for sure. This movie came out in 1994, perhaps my top favorite thing besides the music was a letter that Beethoven wrote to the woman that he truly loved. Ahhhhh yes I love the words “ever thine ever mine ours”  words from a great man ever. I know what you are thinking what is Tameeka talking about now? I’ll be getting to that in a minute. My ex and I are like opposites it’s the truth. I don’t hate him; I look back at what we had as a life lesson. It is what it is. The posts that I write are to encourage and inspire somebody. I believe that there is someone somewhere who’s going through what I am going through. Anyway back on topic.

It’s incredible when you are trying to move on things from the past fall out of nowhere. I found a letter written by my ex from five years ago. That’s right five years ago. I think the purpose of the letter could be for closure. It wasn’t about the letter being from him it was about what was in it. He wrote me many different letters it’s weird that this one suddenly appears. Out of all the letters written why this one I have moved from one address to another and this letter pops up. The letter had several different questions, so I assume that perhaps these are unanswered questions that he may have. I will answer the questions in this post it’s not like he’ll ever read it anyway it’s all about healing. Healing is a great thing.

When my ex ask questions he always wants it done with a “simple yes or no” well things aren’t always that easy.  The paragraph starts with,”Let me ask you these questions because it seems that I am not getting a straight answer from you just answer these questions with a yes or no let’s keep it simple.” Do you still want to be with me? Do you even miss me? Do you love me? Why don’t you ever say that you love me? Do you regret being with me? When my ex got locked up, it made me very angry. I wanted an intact family, and it got destroyed, so I was mad for a long time. When he went away to prison in 2007, I called about the status, and when the lady told me 240 months, I was devastated. My world came crashing down life that I knew had changed. I’m no different from other mothers I wanted the house with the white picketed fence things were ruined in a blink of an eye. At the time I did miss him, it wasn’t about the financial help our sons were growing up without him. He missed out on a massive chunk of our children’s lives so many memories he will never have. Did I love him ever yes I did? I will always have some love for him. Real women are in touch with their feelings, and they keep it 100. It’s amazing how people can’t see how a person loved them. I showed it and told him that too. I never regretted being with my ex; it took him to make our two sons. Our sons are like a replica of us; it’s quite astonishing. I never regretted him, and I never will.

I believe that closure can only happen when things are faced, or we will continue to think about things and reliving situations that have been long over. Being stuck in the past only robs the present, which is a gift. I can’t change what happened, but I have forgiven my ex as well as let go of lots of anger. My ex needs to let go of his anger too because there’s no sense in it. I pray for my ex’s salvation because he doesn’t believe in Christ. I pray that God powerfully touches his heart. For him to have a blessed a life, he has to let go of the anger and the hate it will only poison all of his relationships, including the ones with our children. Taking the same old bricks into a new relationship will only destroy it and I don’t want our children to ever blame themselves. Father God touch my ex’s heart so it will soften and he let’s You in so that You can give him a new start. Lord You know that I mean every word and it’s coming from the heart. Please handle it Father God everything is in Your Hands. I thank You in advance. Amen.

2 Corinthians 5:17

Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things passed away; all things are become new.

Tameeka Simply I

Regardless of the number

Of the number of ladies

Who share my name

There’s only one with my

Personality and identity

I embrace my traits

The positive ones

And the negative ones

Negative things I

Give them antonyms

The positive things

I multiply with synonyms

Possessive becomes protective

Stubborn becomes determine

Weak becomes sensitive

Odd becomes unique

Passive becomes tolerant

Strict becomes punctilious

Old fashioned becomes standards

God made me

Who I am

And I say it proudly

I’m intelligent and funny

I’m heroic yet humble

I’m selfless and passionate

I’m skillful and helpful

My favorite thing prayer warrior

Daily I grow

I’ll let it all show

Not being boastful

As long as God knows

That’s all that matters

He made me to be awesome

I’m aware of my strength

And weakness too

Never am I ashamed

To admit to the truth

My spirit is beautiful

I stand by the people

Who I care about

Love ones as well

I love everyone

Anyone can tell

My passion everyday gets bolder

Standing tall like a British soldier

Always fighting for what

I believe in

Even though I am human

I don’t looks for rewards from man

Because I understand

That Jesus can

Do anything for me

He’s all that I need

With Him in my corner

I’m not afraid to be vulnerable

After all kindness in my nature

When you have the understanding

Of who God has called you to be

You know who you are

You then can fulfill your purpose

Which is to help others

I’m ready to do my job

In God’s kingdom

 

 

The Most High God

Indeed it takes different strokes to move the world. Everybody’s got a special kind of story. Everybody finds a way to shine. I shine because of the Most High God. I was talking on the phone with someone and the person was like when a person says  Thank You God which one are they talking about? Whatchu talkin bout??? I don’t know about anyone else but I serve only one God the true God He goes by many names like counseller, The Mighty God, best friend, Provider, Yahweh, He is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords! That’s the God whom I worship and know that No Other God Has His Power!! I know of no other God. Don’t get me to preaching about the various people in the Bible who worshipped powerless gods remember pharaoh? Pharaoh god did nothing mine helped Moses to part the red sea, not to mention the numerous testimonies that I continue to have up until this very day. So just in case people question or wants to know about the God that I  speak of hopefully what I just wrote is enough. My God who is the Most High is the one that I love and adore. My God is an awesome God! Just lettinchu know who I am talkin bout.

Please Stop

I’m not complaining just voicing how it’s hard to be a Christian that’s a black woman. With all the police brutality that’s been going on against young black men there has been a lot of hostility. When I voice how I feel I get attacked and I’m okay with that.  I get called names and made to feel as if I am betraying my race. I’m a Christian first I speak love and peace. I spread positive messages because let’s face it anything that negative like riots and violence gets us no way. The point that I am making is bring up past events is meaningless if they are not accompanied with positive resolutions. Everyone is shouting and no one is listening. White people along with other races have been victims of police brutality as well. One case of police brutality is too much it has to stop.

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Praying for all seven continents and every nationality. The violence needs to end. If we all pull together to we can make a difference it can happen in a major way. I know that we can do it.

New Season

Yaaaaaaay!! It’s the first day of fall!!! Fall is my favorite season. I am constantly amazed at God’s work. There are four seasons and all four of them has unique characters that set them apart from one another. Fall is sweater weather, crisp air, colorful leaves, anndddd pumpkins!!!! I love everything of pumpkins like pie, creamer and coffee. As you can tell I am thankful for the beautiful fall season. Even though fall comes the same time every year I still love celebrating its return. Loving the change in the air. There are so many things to be amazed about when I think of all of God’s work.

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Michel’le

As I always I share about how I absolutely love all music growing up I listened to everything including NWA one of its members brought out Michel’le. Growing up I was no different from other kids I’d get hooked on a song’s beats and did not pay attention to the lyrics. NWA was one of the hip hop groups who had a lack of respect for women big time. The saddest part is some of us black women continue to support negative music and get upset about the affects of it. I read a post that was quite disturbing it was basically making up excuses for artists who choose their lyrics blaming the environment. Here’s an idea try writing something more positive and uplifting hip hop was once that way a very long time ago.

Michel’le debut album was titled Michel’le the song no more lies was one of my favorites. It’s amazing how we feel that celebrities are so much different from us but they are not….they are human too with problems just like the rest of us sometimes more. She has a movie that’s coming out in October on Lifetime and yes I will be watching it. There are a lot of critics talking about this movie but it’s all good.It’s important to be able to tell our own story no one else knows it better but God.

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What’s Tameeka Listening To?

I love music so very much!! Every day I have to listen to music for hours while studying or just relaxing. Music is the closest and best way that I can explain my thoughts and feelings with various CDs of course. One CD cannot clarify or interpret my affection and emotions. I’d like to think that I am the master of my emotions thus I use music it resonates deeper than words. My taste in music is extremely large I listen to everything. I’ll listen to soft stuff, hard stuff and anything that gives a meaningful and deep experience that can transport the mind and body. I’m loving this song. Check it out:

Favorite Scriptures

Most people refer to the scriptures from Ephesians when it comes to the roles of husbands and wives another excellent one is 1 Peter 3:7-9

7 Likewise, ye husbands, dwell with them according to knowledge, giving honour unto the wife, as unto the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life; that your prayers be not hindered.

8 Finally, be ye all of one mind, having compassion one of another, love as brethren, be pitiful, be courteous:

9 Not rendering evil for evil, or railing for railing: but contrariwise blessing; knowing that ye are thereunto called, that ye should inherit a blessing.

It’s important for everyone to understand God’s word to have a great walk with Him. I’m very thankful for the Word of God.

Plenty of Fish

Growing up we had lots of sayings that our elders would say to us when it came to heartbreak like you are still young and the most famous one “there are other fish in the sea”. Let’s think about the sea do you realize how many different fish that there are? There are so many fish ranging from the letters A-Z. I look at the world of people like a ocean not every catch is right for you. It’s important not to throw back a rock fish and end up with a goldfish. The ocean has spots, tuna, flounder, sharks and there are things in it that’s not even fish like dolphins and whales. There are five groups of marine mammals and polar bears make up of it too. More and more I sit back and realize that it’s best to trust God always when it comes to everything including finding our true mate.

Everyone can talk and hear but only the right one can speak and listen to your soul. God has one special person for us not thousands. Everyone who talks the talk doesn’t walk the walk the wrong person will say and do anything to get what they want.When we find a special person we have to realize that Not everyone is replaceable thus we must be careful who we hurt and not to take them for granted. No one wants to search for a lifetime only to find that they threw the person back into the sea of people a long time ago. Remember there’s only one Nemo if you want to think of the sea. Love is so beautiful especially when it comes from the one that God has for you. We are all worthy of love. We are worth it !! Yes and we don’t need L’Oreal to tell us that ,we have God.