My Top 25 Metal Bands and Their Songs

Here are my top favorite 25 bands of the 90s and their songs:

25. Orgy- Blue Monday
24. Dream Theater- Pull Me Under
23. Babes in Toyland- Bruise Violet
22. Sepultura- Territory
21. Tool- Sober
20. Godsmack- Whatever
19. Faith No More- Midlife Crisis
18. Stone Temple Pilots- Big Bang Baby
17. Alice in Chains- Would?
16. Megadeth- Sweating Bullets
15. Guns N Roses- Knockin on Heaven’s Door
14. L7- Gas Chamber
13. AC/DC- Thunderstruck
12. Nine Inch Nails- Closer
11. Rage Against the Machine- Bulls on Parade
10. Pearl Jam- Black
9. Soundgarden- Outshined
8. Nirvana- Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge on Seattle
7.Korn- Clown
6. White Zombie- Cosmic Monsters Inc.
5. Type O Negative- Love You to Death
4. The White Stripes- Little People
3. Linkin Park- Closing
2. Pantera- I’m Broken
1. Metallica- Sad but True

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Why Do We Do It?

I will never understand how come some black women can quickly turn on one another. It’s a shame. Yesterday I read a post by one of my facebook friends saying that her son’s friends doesn’t dated black women because we have attitudes amongst other not so nice things that I do not care to repeat. She posted about it so it has me wondering. In my mind messengers have motives, what was her motive? An excuse for why it’s all right for black men to date non-black women. I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again. I could give a hill a beans about who date who it’s the double standards that I can’t stand. People will come for me but will ignore the facts that I have to back up what I say. I will not be a product of tribal shaming. I will not be bullied into silence. Any type of insults that happen to me are just ways to silence me and why is that? As long as I go along with the program it’s all good. As long as I get in line it’s all good. Welp. I am not a Kindergartner. I won’t be treated like a child. I’m all for people living their lives therefore allow me to live mine! Don’t pick and choose who should get attacked and who doesn’t that’s a bully’s mentality. The attacking of others with the hope of isolating them from others I can’t get with. Making people feel like they are unworthy of a better life according to someone else’s standards. When a person speaks truth the people who don’t want to receive it quickly label it as being negative. Everything that I named are silencing tactics and I won’t stand for it. Bullies attempt to bully those who they feel are weaker than them. I serve only one God I sure as heck won’t deal with humans attempting to play God in my life. If people don’t like what I have to write don’t read my blog leave me be (let me live my life) just like how you guys allow men like Nick Cannon to do so.

Black women get trashed by their fellow sisters but did Nick Cannon get trashed? Nope, He wasn’t. Nick Cannon spoke of how dating white women is looked at as the ultimate status symbol. Uh huh!!! What will be said about this? The most that will be said about Nick Cannon is that he is “cornball” and that is at a minimum. So far I have not seen any kind of attacks on Nick Cannon. There will not be any kind of attacking campaigns on Nick Cannon, trust me on this one. Yet, A person like me can be and will be torn apart and I just can’t take people who have double standards seriously. I’ve been attacked mostly by black women and I don’t care. It’s understood that a made up mind can’t be changed however that can make a person narrow-minded. I for one refuse to continue to turn a blinded eye to these kind of situations. To be honest I am glad that more and more black men like Nick Cannon are showing who they truly are may be then people will begin to see the truth.

A Crush

I have been a huge fan of Regina King’s ever since the television show 227. It’s excellent that she is finally receiving the recognition that is well deserved. Recently she was on the Jimmy Kimmel Live show where she revealed who her longtime celebrity crush is. Now hang on to your hats for this one it’s not Billie Dee Williams or Denzel Washington. Nope, Nope, and Nope. It’s Sam Elliott. Regina spoke of how she loved him in the movie Roadhouse. Roadhouse came out in 1989 that tells you how young that she was when she first developed a crush on Sam Elliot. She was around 17 or 18 years of age. She gushed about the thought of being able to finally meet him. Who wouldn’t? Sam Elliot was amazing to me in the movie Tombstone. Ahhhhhh. The memories when I think of the movie Tombstone. He was always labeled as a sex symbol.

Regina King looks absolutely amazing her arms are on point, it’s like she’s aging backwards. It was comical reading the comments of the videos of her sharing who her celebrity crush is. Which supports everything that I have been saying about the double standards when it comes to black women dating non-black men. So Yeah. Regina King was in movies like Poetic Justice and Boyz in the Hood yet Sam Elliot is her all time celebrity crush. It was so refreshing to hear about that. It just goes to show how there are many black women who have had a crush on a sexy white man. And it’s quite all right. Woot Woot!

My Weight Loss Update

Wooooo Hoooo!!! I am extremely close to my weight loss goal. Keto is the way to go. I would recommend the Keto Diet to just about anyone. I’m sleeping well and I feel grrreeeeat in my Tony the Tiger’s voice. Working hard on my health every day because I don’t want to go back. I have always been a person who smiles but I smile even more now!

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My Latest Photos

I’m so incredibly happy being healthy makes a difference. Wanting to be thicker than a Snickers isn’t my style, I am no longer into junk food. Keto is the way to go.

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I feel fabulous there is so much more in store!!! Thanks Keto!

What’s Tameeka Listening To?

After almost year two of Chris Cornell’s passing a decent tribute was given to him. I have been vocal about Chris Cornell receiving the proper respect that he deserves. So Miley Cyrus sang “Say Hello 2 Heaven” it was alright. It’s one of my favorite songs by Temple of the Dog. Hunger Strike is my all time favorite song by Temple of the Dog. Say Hello 2 Heaven is what I’ve been listening to a lot lately besides the Raconteurs.

“Say Hello 2 Heaven”

Please, mother mercy
Take me from this place
And the long winded curses
I keep hearing in my head
Words never listen
And teachers, oh, they never learn
Now I’m warm from the candle
But I feel too cold to burn
He came from an island
And he died from the street
And he hurt so bad like a soul breaking
But he never said nothing to me

So say hello to heaven, heaven, heaven…
Say hello to heaven, heaven, heaven, yeah

New like a baby
Lost like a prayer
The sky was your playground
But the cold ground was your bed
Poor stargazer
She’s got no tears in her eyes
Smooth like a whisper
She knows that love heals all wounds with time
Now it seems like too much love is never enough
You better seek out another road
Cause this one has ended abrupt

Say hello to heaven, heaven, heaven…
Say hello to heaven, heaven, heaven…
Say hello to heaven, heaven, heaven…

I never wanted
To write these words down for you
With the pages of phrases
Of all the things we’ll never do
So I blow out the candle and
I put you to bed
Since you can’t say to me now
How the dogs broke your bone
There’s just one thing left to be said

Say hello to heaven, heaven, yeah
Say hello to heaven, heaven, yeah
Say hello to heaven, heaven, yeah
Say hello to heaven, to heaven, yeah

Dear Jason

One day at a time, one prayer at a time I have moved on many years ago. Just because a person has laid down a torch for a person for whom they were once in love with doesn’t mean that one can’t reflect on certain things. You may never read this letter but it’s all right. Beethoven wrote a letter to his immortal beloved in hopes that she would get it and she did. People still release doves at weddings and balloons on birthdays for sentimental reasons. There is nothing wrong with hoping that something will happen. Not sure as to why but for some reason you were on my mind which isn’t unusual but it was much different this time. This past November 1st I wanted to cry. I am not the same young twenty-something-year-old woman that I was many years ago. Sure I am still strong, smart, kind, caring, loving, faithful, loyal, hardworking, educated, etc. I am speaking of the person beneath all of those things that I just named the broken person who I never faced until now, I have come to accept many things. I’m healed so I’m woman enough to admit it. I believe that an apology is in order. An apology isn’t shared it’s clear, heartfelt and sincere. An apology doesn’t make up excuses otherwise it would be useless. This apology is given with the hopes of understanding occurring. So twenty-something years later I’m woman enough to say it. Please allow me to explain it. How many times had you reached out for my hand? How many times had you stood up for our relationship? How many times had you shown me how much you loved me at the time? All you ever did was try to love me truly. Many people on the outside could see it. It’s hard to receive something that was never taught or witnessed prior to our love. I didn’t know how to receive the blessing that you tried so hard to give me. We never talked about me being broken emotionally. You loved me for me and I know it was hard at the time. We were both so young. I wasn’t ready because I didn’t realize things until recent years now everything is all clear. To be honest, I felt guilty like I didn’t deserve you. I witnessed my mother who was amazing, strong, enduring a lot of abuse and lots of struggling love. She never received what she truly wanted. She was great but she constantly settled for less. She was in relationships that were mediocre. I thought to myself how come she wasn’t blessed with a love that was healthy? So I felt that it was my fate. That if my mother wasn’t blessed with something special then how could I? Sadly,years later after a few failed relationships with men who knew nothing about loving a woman and me not choosing right. I’ve come to know that love is an action word. It’s giving 100 percent on both ends. It’s looking at ourselves and making sure that we are ready for what’s to come. It’s evaluating ourselves so that we don’t have to realize years later about our mistakes. One of my exes cheated is abusive, disrespectful, manipulative, a deadbeat father the list goes on. Dysfunction is an ugly snowball that creates a slippery slope that is neverending, ever. My whole life I fought to not inherit a love life like my mother’s only to have one that is similar to it. I’ve seen the opposite of great and looking back…it’s alright because I’m in an okay place. Immature people laugh at vulnerability or try to manipulate it the first chance when there is an advantage. People get older mature and look at where they messed up, where things went wrong. They admit it after all the more we know the more we grow. I’ve learned that no one is above hurting someone whether it’s unintentionally or intentionally. We have to be quick to make things right and give an apology whenever necessary immediately. It’s important to be aware that being right isn’t more important than losing the one whom you love because you may be wrong after all we are all human. I’m older and I pray that one day you will be able to know how sorry that I am for being hard to love it was all that I knew. I never witnessed anything else but I grew from it. No, I wasn’t perfect and neither were you. But we were perfect for one another at the time. I know that you are in a different state of mind and so am I, however, it doesn’t change what happened which is why I am apologizing now. I pray that the woman in our life, love you, value you, love you hard, love you back, love you in every way that you want. You deserve to be loved more than anything because you deserve nothing less than greatness I pray that you have it. I do not in any way expect automatic forgiveness but I do hope for it. I understand that forgiveness is a two-way street an apology has to be accepted. In the meantime I just wanted to apologize for the things that I did, the things that I once believed, and the things that I said.

My Best,

Tameeka