I Love Who I Am

I love being me! I have my own beauty. I stand on my beliefs.
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I listen to all kinds of music but heavy metal is my favorite.
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This is me!
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Valuable Lesson

There are so many things that I have learned over the years some of the things were hard lessons. Although it’s said that experience is the best teacher in some cases I would like to elect not to take the lesson.

The job where I worked in the 90s had a lot of great people. I enjoyed going to work just to see them. My friend and I met one another at this job. We became great friends instantly. She was a big help to me when my mother past away in 1997 with her support. At my mother’s funeral I can’t tell you the number of people who promised to have mine and my sisters’ backs. I can tell you the number that kept their promises, it was about five people perhaps. My mother’s funeral was packed with people too. When tough times hits you find out who your true friends are. I didn’t need money I needed a listening ear and she was there. I had a lot of responsibility on me at the time.

Recently, I reconnected with my best friend. About ten years ago I saw her while I was at work and we talked for a few months sadly we lost contact. To be honest I was going out with a guy was extremely jealous and selfish. Thankfully I broke up with him it was one of the best decisions that I have ever made in my life.

It’s important when people are in relationships or marriages to make sure that the person is happy but not at the expense of losing friendships and family. It’s a big red flag when a companion wants you all to themselves. So run for the hills.

Anywho, my friend was on my mind and so I looked for her on social media. I could not find my friend anywhere on social media. She doesn’t have any social media at all. While I was searching for her I found out that some of the people my friend and I worked with passed away. It really hurt me too. Especially when I found out that her mother passed away during the time that we had lost contact. I was devastated, it’s a feeling that I don’t want to know ever again.

It’s so important to stay connected to the people who we care about. Money can always be earned back but time once it’s gone that’s it. The most valuable lesson that I learned is to never lose contact with great friends. I promised my friend that I would not lose contact with her ever again. Great friends are hard to find. They are like precious diamonds. We should hold our friends tight and never let them go. I know that’s what I am going to be doing from now on.

I’ll Give You Trouble

My youngest son love old school games, music, and movies. We have so much in common. Last week he asked me if I could order some board games. The games that my son asked for were Jenga, Connect 4, and Trouble. I ordered the games online quickly.

As soon as the games came in the mail, he, my niece, and I began to play the game Trouble. Anyone who knows the rules of the game of Trouble knows that you can’t get out of home base until you get a six. My son got a six and another six. I got a six too. My niece still had not gotten a six and all four of her pieces were sitting at home. My niece didn’t stop until she got a six. She didn’t get frustrated at all.

This put me in the mindset about God’s timing, little things gets me to do that. We can’t get caught up looking around at other people’s turns. We have to stay focused on what God has for us once it’s time for us to step out on our journey.

Anywho, my niece kept popping that bubble until she came out of home base. Like how the turtle beat the hare she won the game too! Our timing isn’t important only God’s timing is important. God does things on His time and His timing is perfect. So when thoughts of doubt attempt to enter into your mind give them trouble and keep popping that bubble.

Love’s Dog

We all want to feel it
Yet we all fear it
Nobody wants to be love’s dog
Love is so beautiful
Yet it can be so painful
Seems like nobody wants
To love only one person for
All of eternity anymore
Love today
And it’s gone tomorrow
How can something
That was once so amazing
Be over
Nobody wants to be love’s dog
We become acquainted with love
Then somehow gradually let it go
Feelings that were once mutual gone
Days of laughter
Become sorrow
How can two people
Who seems to have the right chemistry
Relationships’ have an unhappy ending
It’s a mystery
Past situations should have taught us
How to endure
To help us to love better
In the future
We want to front on the person
Whom we want our forever with
We refuse to think
Beyond temperamental differences and bad memories
In our quest to love
We must think differently
It’s truly essential
But things can’t take off because
Nobody wants to be love’s dog
From lovely days to
Lonely days
We close the entrances to our hearts
That have been damaged severely
From heartache, broken trust,
And major disappointments
All by the one whom we thought was appointed
To us beyond a belief moment
Nobody wants to be love’s dog
The world today
Sleeps on opportunities
Instead of ceases it
Treating it like a layaway
As if true love waits
And never goes away
We all want a happily ever after
But love’s unpredictability
Can be too much to bare
Nobody wants to be love’s dog

A Letter To My Boaz

The Book of Ruth has been a blessing in my life. It made me want to be the best wife that  I could possibly be when God feels that  I am ready. I just want to live according to His will. On my journey things will come along as a distraction in order to get me to miss my blessings. To me the biggest sign of maturity of a person’s walk is admitting to their faults and learning from them. I was married once before but when God is not in it a marriage cannot survive. Everyone wants marriage but not the responsibilities that comes with it.

Another thing this doesn’t apply to me but a good man wants a good woman of good quality. It’s not a good thing to be posting distasteful photos on the internet remember:

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Back on topic  I learned that sometimes gaining something  you may have to lose something. I also learned that if you have a relationship with Christ there will be less tough lessons to learn because you will be in tune with His voice. Christ is hope with Him in our lives we will always make the right choice.

To my future Boaz:

I want to thank God

For making you just for me

A faith, loyal, praying

Man of God

Even though we both have

Encountered tough times

God allowed us to survive

We learned what we wanted

Wasn’t what we needed

That when God isn’t in our lives

There’s more of a chance of

Us not doing what’s right

You need to know that  I value you

Already without even meeting you

Yet

I respect you

My Boaz with Ephesians five standards

I trust your leadership

Because  I trust God first

I want to pray with you

Read the Bible with you

Worship and fellowship

With you

If you have children

They are included too

Understand that there is no we or us

If everything or everyone that we love

Isn’t involved

I want to be a problem solver

Not a trouble maker

I want to ease your pain

And not cause it

I don’t care about material things

They come and go

Besides the Bible says that when

A man finds a wife he finds a good

Thing and will receive favor from

The Lord

So until the day we come together

I just want  you to know that

I am working on being awesome for

God and you

I want you to be my Boaz

And  I want to be your Ruth

I love the Book of Ruth

Ruth 2:4  And, behold, Boaz came from Bethlehem, and said unto the reapers, The Lord be with you. And they answered him, The Lord bless thee.

Cuffing Season

I’m a very positive person still you have to speak truth. Sometimes when you speak truth some people don’t want to receive it that’s fine come back to my blog when you are ready to. I write about things that are thought about and on this post I want to discuss cuffing season.

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Now I know what you are thinking what is Tameeka talking about now??!!! Well I’ll tell you cuffing season is when people try to cuff others and it’s Not out of love so don’t confuse the two. If a person hasn’t contacted you springtime nor summer but want to now you should wondering why. Sometimes when others are treating us wrong we think that it’s a reflection of ourselves but it isn’t it’s quite the opposite. We still have to be honest to keep us from enduring unnecessary pain. Just because a person is with you physically doesn’t mean that they are mentally remember home is where the heart is. Who needs a dude texting another woman while you are sleeping and some woman may want to fool herself if a man is doing sneaky things like that it’s not love believe me when I tell you.

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I understand that sometimes we get lonely it’s human but we don’t want to allow a season to mess us up for a lifetime. God will send the right one but it can’t happen if you are with the wrong one. Any person cuffing you during cuffing season is the wrong one. Trust God. In our times of weakness it’s best to pray.

New Season

Yaaaaaaay!! It’s the first day of fall!!! Fall is my favorite season. I am constantly amazed at God’s work. There are four seasons and all four of them has unique characters that set them apart from one another. Fall is sweater weather, crisp air, colorful leaves, anndddd pumpkins!!!! I love everything of pumpkins like pie, creamer and coffee. As you can tell I am thankful for the beautiful fall season. Even though fall comes the same time every year I still love celebrating its return. Loving the change in the air. There are so many things to be amazed about when I think of all of God’s work.

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