I Just Don’t Know How to Feel

I feel like the U2 song called Numb
I have a bland demeanor
I just don’t know how to feel
I wrote a post
The other day
Was it God preparing me
I spoke about
The importance of being healthy
Then boom one of my sisters
That is second to me in my family
Became sickly
My sister and I
Have very different personalities
We are not any different
Than any other siblings
She would push me
To the point where
I would scream
Then things would really get ugly
The next thing you know
We stop speaking
To each other
This last time was unique
Because when I spoke
Back to my sister
She had a surgery
That changed everything
It brought on an
Illness that made her so weak
That it robbed
Her of her speech and mobility
My sister told me
That she had a vision
Of all of her sisters
When we were young
In the backyard playing
Then she gave me an apology
She said I’m sorry
That I have been so mean
I love you with all of my heart
Then she started crying
And asked God
Why are You punishing me?
I think about Christianity
Christians are still
Human beings
Is it right
For us to except
People being mean?
I always try
To be forgiving
I feel so torn
Do I stand up
And demand respect
For all the times
She made me upset
Or do I allow
This situation to teach me
To not waste time
On stupid things
Because time is the most
Valuable thing that you can
Share with someone
That you love deeply
I love my sisters
So much I just
Want us to live to be elderly
I just want us to live carefree
I just want us to be happy
Father God in Heaven
Please allow my prayers
To be
My heart can’t take
Anymore agony

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Fight For Your Marriage

Mark 10:9

What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder.

Do Not I repeat do Not give up on your marriage.

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Be careful when a marriage is in trouble the devil will send someone along who Appears to be everything that your spouse isn’t. Don’t fall for the trick of the enemy remember his mission is to kill steal and destroy. Tell the enemy to keep his hands off of your spouse

You Have To Fight

With every

Tear that you cry

There’s a reason

With every

Question there’s

There’s an answer

For every rough morning

For every sleepless night

For every painful experience

For every disappointment

God has a plan

To make things right

So hold on tight

And fight

All of your troubles

Will soon disappear

The purpose will be clear

You will see that

Everything was worth it

God has the best destined

Since your birth

Don’t allow worry

To trouble you

Turn it loose and put up your dukes

Fight

You have to fight

Hold on change for

The good is coming

Everything has an expiration date

And that includes bad things

Know that you are not alone

God sits high and looks low

Please know that He’s

Always on His throne

Everything and every person

Who has ever hurt you

God will send

Someone and something new

For every rainy day

There are sunny days

Plus a rainbow

So hold on

With all of your might

Your blessings will soon

Be in within your sight

Know that you deserve

What God has in store

But you have to fight

Don’t give in to sadness

Or stress

Get ready to be blessed

Don’t give up

 

How Far Are You Willing To Go?

When I think of love

So many things comes to my mind

A gentleman and a lady

Who are in real love, true love

Together pushing against the odds

Like a sail in the wind or a kite

Fighting to keep their love strong

They are ready to do anything

Knowing that they were meant to be

When they argue there are no ego

They have in mind if they separate

They both lose so its never about

Winning unless it’s together

There’s no team in I but in us

The real test in love

Is how far are you willing to go

When I say you it means both people

Involved doing their part

To keep what they have

It takes a person working on

Themselves individually

So they do mess up

So how far are you willing to go

To show your other half

How much that you love them

Do you have a limit

Do you care more about what outsiders

Think about your relationship

Do you love the person for

Who they are

Or it for what they do or what they have

Are there motives involved

What happens when they cannot

Do what they use to

Would that be the end for you

What happens when they age

Or they get sick

Will you stick

Will your love be the same

Or will it fade

Can you answer these

Questions honestly and openly

If your answers to these questions

Support keeping your relationship

Then you have answered my

Question of

How far you are willing to go