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I Just Don’t Know How to Feel
I feel like the U2 song called Numb
I have a bland demeanor
I just don’t know how to feel
I wrote a post
The other day
Was it God preparing me
I spoke about
The importance of being healthy
Then boom one of my sisters
That is second to me in my family
Became sickly
My sister and I
Have very different personalities
We are not any different
Than any other siblings
She would push me
To the point where
I would scream
Then things would really get ugly
The next thing you know
We stop speaking
To each other
This last time was unique
Because when I spoke
Back to my sister
She had a surgery
That changed everything
It brought on an
Illness that made her so weak
That it robbed
Her of her speech and mobility
My sister told me
That she had a vision
Of all of her sisters
When we were young
In the backyard playing
Then she gave me an apology
She said I’m sorry
That I have been so mean
I love you with all of my heart
Then she started crying
And asked God
Why are You punishing me?
I think about Christianity
Christians are still
Human beings
Is it right
For us to except
People being mean?
I always try
To be forgiving
I feel so torn
Do I stand up
And demand respect
For all the times
She made me upset
Or do I allow
This situation to teach me
To not waste time
On stupid things
Because time is the most
Valuable thing that you can
Share with someone
That you love deeply
I love my sisters
So much I just
Want us to live to be elderly
I just want us to live carefree
I just want us to be happy
Father God in Heaven
Please allow my prayers
To be
My heart can’t take
Anymore agony
Your Best You
What works for us may not work for someone else however we need to make sure that we don’t hold ourselves back.
Yesterday I saw so many things that had me thinking about how some people aren’t ready to give themselves the best. We have to stay away from people who deprive themselves and want starve us of our dreams as well.
Most of my life I have had a battle with my weight. Recently I started the Keto Diet and I have been making excellent progress. I’ve lost tons of weight several times in my life so I know the struggle. Anyway I put a picture on Facebook of myself and seconds later I saw a post in my Newsfeed pertaining to Christians who are vain. I hardly ever upload pictures but this lady is overweight. She may attempt to call me vain but she may have a problem with jealousy.
It is said that a picture speaks a thousand words well I beg to differ. My picture is of a woman who has had a battle with weight and a mother who had the battle as well. My mother died of cancer in 1997 and she was overweight. The doctors told me that if my mother had of been slimmer they could have helped her to live longer. The fact is our health is our wealth. We can’t do anything without having good health.
I remember when a lady on YouTube spoke of black women getting their health together and some women got upset but she was right!! In the black community black men tell black women to stay thick the problem is what people think is thick. Newflash thick isn’t obesity. Obesity is the leading cause of certain illnesses like diabetes and high blood pressure.
We should be our best selves. When we are at our best the best harvest is received. Healthy people most times live longer.
I’ve come to realize that most times people aren’t ready to hear the truth even if it’s something that can help them too. Why wouldn’t we want to be the best us?
I remember watching old contestants from world biggest losers and they shared how their perfect weight wasn’t always the recommended weight. They were healthy at a weight that was best for them.
Over the years we have heard about being comfortable with ourselves and that’s a great mindset as long as we are healthy.
I have acid reflux and when I’m overweight I pay for it dearly. I would never put a person down about their weight. I’ve been slim and overweight so I understand the struggle. I only want to inspire and uplifted others. Our lives are not just our own. I have two sons depending on me and I want to be here for them.
Yes! I’m a Christian and we believe that our bodies are temporary however we still need to be healthy. We take care of our houses and cars. Why not our bodies as well?
Rick is the Walking Dead
Here’s my daily rant! Rick Grimes is the Walking Dead! I am a huge Walking Dead fan I have coffee mugs, tons of t-shirts, and a Daryl Dixon’s crossbow lamp.
I get so tired of people questioning fans’ loyalty. I love the show. I just don’t like how it’s looking so different from the show that I first felling in love with.
The opening of the Walking Dead starts with Rick. Fans have been looking at things through Rick’s eyes.
It saddens me about Andrew Lincoln’s departure. For months there have been lots of speculation pertaining to Andrew leaving. He confirmed about the departure news during the San Diego Comic Con. I understand that he is British and that he wants to be with his family. I appreciate all of the sacrifice that he has made for the fans over the years. Not many people would spend as much time away from their families as Andrew Lincoln has.
I will watch the Walking Dead to the very end because I am a true fan. However, understand this Rick is the Walking Dead anyone else who attempts to fill his boots is nothing more than a bottle episode aka filler. Having someone to fill in for Rick is like Willow and Xander attempting to fill in for Buffy, it won’t work. Let the ratings show the truth because they will.
Okay Rant Over! Thank you Andrew Lincoln for everything! We love you! We will miss you!
Being Alone
As long as I am on Facebook, my chances of developing writer’s block are slim. Every day I see something that makes me feel like what in the world? Today I saw a post that said, “Women who say that they want to be alone are liars. If a woman doesn’t want the company of a man, something must be wrong because it’s human nature. That every woman wants to be touched if not but for 20 minutes and be wined as well as dined by someone special. Step out of the denial zone!” So hilarious! Like this person can speak for every woman on the planet.
I came to the realization a long time ago that a lot of people do not have our best interest in mind unless theirs benefit in some way. Example if a woman is alone, there isn’t any possible drama that they can laugh about, such as a man cheating or being disrespectful. Some women can’t win especially black women if they date interracially it’s who do they think that they are? If some black women say that they want to be alone, they are liars. There are people sadly, especially some women who find joy in someone else’s pain. Check out a person’s timeline on facebook it will tell you everything that you need to know if it’s like a loaded potato with fighting videos there you go. They love the drama; it’s the highlight of their day. Misery loves company.
Yes. There are good men, but there are a lot of bad. The good ones never say anything to the bad ones anyway that’s for another time. The bad ones cheat, lie, disrespectful, and don’t take care of their children, to name a few. As far as I am concerned, some of these dudes belong in the 1700s because the only use that they can be good at is a bed warmer.

So if some women want to be alone what it is to anyone else? What do they have to do with it? It sounds like someone isn’t so happy with their 20 minutes and being wined as well dined because they got time to pay attention to someone else’s business. Well, 20 minutes does go by quickly!!! Happy and busy people have one thing significant thing in common they don’t have time to entertain the thought of misery. I would rather be alone then deal with drama or be another notch in a man’s belt.
A Year Ago Today
At times life
Can seem so unfair
When a person passes away
It becomes so clear
That we all
Have very little time here
In a blink of an eye
We go from being our parent’s babies
To holding our very own children
No matter how a person
Touches our lives
Their importance
Becomes apparent
When the person
Is no longer here
To bless us with
The very things
That we hold
So near and so dear
One life touches other
Even though we sometimes
Don’t realize
How significant
That we are
Which is why loss
Hits like a ton
Of bricks
Crashing in
Weighing heavy on our hearts
We are never ready
But why should we be
We are not ready
To set a person free
Today is Chris Cornell’s birthday
He is missed today
As much as he was when
He passed away
Perhaps even more
I wish that
He could tell his family
That he loves them
One more time
I wish that
He could huge them
And not let go
I wish that we could
Get a chance to
Hear him sing live
One more time
I wish that we all
Could witness his smile
To listen to lyrics
That he wrote
Which were pulled
Deep from within his soul
All of us fans feeling like
We can relate
And admire him
For expressing his feelings
I wish he could be here
So we could all let him
Know how much that he is valued
And that he’s not alone
I’m Not For Racism
I’m not for racism but I can’t stand hypocrisy either. Stupidity doesn’t work well for me. I have said this time and time again I hate the “N” word, no one should use it regardless of their race!
Yes. The CEO of Papa John’s was wrong along with everyone who uses racial slurs no one is better than a anyone else. Some black people use the “N” word but get up in an uproar when someone from another race uses it. What’s the difference? Can someone please explain this to me? I read a post from a person stating that they didn’t feel sorry for the CEO of Papa John’s that they don’t feel sorry for racists. Yet this person has never corrected the black people who uses the word. The person only talked about the “racist white people” who uses it. Well let me ask something is a black person who uses the “N” word racist? One needs to be careful about the reasons why it’s okay for black people to be able to use that word.
The definition of the “N” word is Slang: Extremely Disparaging and Offensive.
a contemptuous term used to refer to a black person.
a contemptuous term used to refer to a member of any dark-skinned people.
This is why I speak of the dysfunction within the black community some thinks it’s okay to use the “N” like they get a free pass. If this word is so offensive why is it okay for anyone to use it? I have some people who want to bully me because of my mentality it’s okay with me because I don’t take them seriously.
I get tired of all the foolishness that I see. Every time a white person gets caught saying a racial slur “it’s see I told you” but they don’t correct the black people who say it. I believe and I could be wrong but some people love to choose battles that are easy. Some black people know if they complain enough companies will fire people and apologize immediately. They won’t say anything to the black people who use the “N” because they may use it themselves or the feel that they are justified to use it.
Some people have a bullying spirit they are ready to jump on those who they can intimidate. Just like how some of these black men be on the internet calling black women names and talking about how they are. Some of these black men claim to care about the community but they don’t say a word to black men. The last time I checked the black community consisted of more than just the women. And no I’m not getting off track I’m talking about the hypocrisy that goes on.
When some black people get upset about another race using the “N” word and not their own. Isn’t that calling the kettle black? Come on now!!! People are good at holding up a mirror up at other people but would rather drop it and chance getting cut by glass before they are willing to face themselves.
Which Playlist is Best?
Am I going to listen to the Red Hot Chili Peppers or Faith No More? Jack White is in a class of his own. He always wins with me.
I’m doing my assignment soon so I want music to play all the way through. Do you remember a time when albums were made instead of mixtapes? Yeah. Me too, it was in the 90s. In the 90s every genre was great it’s the truth. The 90s music could stomp today’s music into the dirt. Don’t make me call Mike Patton over here to prove it.

Okay. Faith No More is my choice of music for today. Epic! What it is? You want it all but you can’t have it. It’s in your face but you can’t grab it. Mike Patton has a high octane voice that is thought to be higher than Mariah Carey’s. That’s amazing. The riffs on Epic though and that video! The videos of today are nothing like years ago.
Vinnie Paul
Time is flying and sadly people are passing away. I remember when it was the tenth anniversary of “Dimebag” passing and I gave him a shout out. Seconds later a dude posted a subliminal message saying “people act like they knew “Dimebag” personally or something. I’m like dude no I didn’t know the guy but growing up music saved my life and this band’s music helped me a lot.
Vinnie Paul a drummer and his brother “Dimebag” Darrell Abbott a guitarist helped to form the band Pantera in the 80s. Pantera helped to make the 80s and 90s to be amazing years of my life growing up. My favorite album by Pantera is “Far Beyond Driven”. The songs that I love by Pantera are Walk, I’m Broken, and 5 Mintues Alone. My mother brought me a Pantera shirt I felt like it was the dopest thing ever!
In 2004 “Dimebag” Darrell Abbott was killed while he was playing a concert with his new band Damageplan. Yesterday Vinnie passed away it’s so sad. Thanks for helping to make music great! RIP!
Trent Reznor
Trent Reznor is a songwriter who is the lead singer of the band Nine Inch Nails. Every chance that I get I have to make a point to mention that Trent and I share the same birthday. Trent is a man of greatness. Who wouldn’t be proud to share the same birthday as him? In 1989 I was watching MTV and saw the video “Head Like Hole”. I asked my mother to get me Nine Inch Nails’ cassette. I was super stoked when she got it for me. It always felt like Christmas when I would get a new cassette.
My favorite album by Nine Inch Nails has to be “The Downward Spiral”. It’s the second album by Nine Inch Nails. The whole album is good but my favorite songs are “Closer, Hurt, and March of the Pigs”.
Nine Inch Nails recently performed in Las Vegas. Trent Reznor sounded amazing I watched the performance on YouTube. The highlights of the performance was the debut track called “Ahead of Ourselves” and the cover of Joy Division’s “Digital”.