I Just Don’t Know How to Feel

I feel like the U2 song called Numb
I have a bland demeanor
I just don’t know how to feel
I wrote a post
The other day
Was it God preparing me
I spoke about
The importance of being healthy
Then boom one of my sisters
That is second to me in my family
Became sickly
My sister and I
Have very different personalities
We are not any different
Than any other siblings
She would push me
To the point where
I would scream
Then things would really get ugly
The next thing you know
We stop speaking
To each other
This last time was unique
Because when I spoke
Back to my sister
She had a surgery
That changed everything
It brought on an
Illness that made her so weak
That it robbed
Her of her speech and mobility
My sister told me
That she had a vision
Of all of her sisters
When we were young
In the backyard playing
Then she gave me an apology
She said I’m sorry
That I have been so mean
I love you with all of my heart
Then she started crying
And asked God
Why are You punishing me?
I think about Christianity
Christians are still
Human beings
Is it right
For us to except
People being mean?
I always try
To be forgiving
I feel so torn
Do I stand up
And demand respect
For all the times
She made me upset
Or do I allow
This situation to teach me
To not waste time
On stupid things
Because time is the most
Valuable thing that you can
Share with someone
That you love deeply
I love my sisters
So much I just
Want us to live to be elderly
I just want us to live carefree
I just want us to be happy
Father God in Heaven
Please allow my prayers
To be
My heart can’t take
Anymore agony

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Happy Birthday Lil Sis

Happy Birthday to my lil Sis
You are a gift
That is tremendous
Anyone who gets to meet you
Should consider themselves blessed
You are you unapologetically
I am glad that God sent
You to me
In the past
I have spoken about
The few ups and downs
That we have encountered
But over the years
I have came to realize
That no one has
A relationship that’s perfect
It’s about how people
Care enough to
Work through things
And bounce back
Stronger than ever
To get things resolved
So that misunderstandings
Never happen again
You are not just
My lil sister
But my best friend
A bond that goes
Beyond blood
It’s something
That runs deeper
It’s about who is
In my heart
And that is where you are
This is why I made
You this card
Because these words
Aren’t found in Hallmark
Happy Birthday
I love you more than words can say

Like a Sister

We see it on television or social media every day a person who was considered to be a sister who betrayed another in the worse way. Is there any true sisterhood anymore? Are there any loyal sisters today?

It’s all about the respect and the value that people choose to place on things like friendships, relationships, marriages, and yes sisterhood.

I saw a beautiful post and it’s so how I am. The post said ” I am a woman’s woman and a faithful friend. I won’t run off with your man. I won’t hate you because you’re beautiful. I’ll celebrate your success as my own. I’ll keep your secrets and listen to your rants. I choose my friends carefully and if I choose you, I’ll love you like a sister.

I don’t take pleasure in pulling other sisters down. No matter where I am in life through my highs and lows I am never stingy with a compliment. If a sister has lost weight, a new place, new hair-do I will tell her, that I am proud, that she’s beautiful. Never will I undermine a sister’s accomplishment she deserves her props. One thing I don’t do and that’s jock another sister’s style, I am a confident woman I don’t constantly need the spotlight.

This world is already wicked and filled with heartless hateful people. Being negative is easy to do, seeing the best in people can be hard if we focus on the bad things only. There is peace in positivity.

Being mean and fault finding all the time isn’t healthy it’s good to have awareness of the negative people and situations. However, it’s good to enjoy things as well as people that come along.

I choose to believe that there are still good people and that means sisters of every color. Flowers bloom together, they don’t compete because each has their own unique beauty. I’m keeping faith about true sisterhood. It exists.

Sisters

It is 2016 and it’s time to take accountability for our own actions. This goes out to my fellow black sisters let’s stop being competitive. We are different shades that doesn’t matter at the end of the day we check off the same box on a job application and that’s for the black race. I’d like to think of all of us as flowers unique but all very beautiful. Today is a new day black women are more educated and career driven with brand new visions that are on the horizon. Stop with the stereotypes many of us don’t watch Love and Hip Hop, Real Housewives,  Empire, Scandal etc. I  prefer flesh eating zombies Walking Dead baby! So let’s stop with the division and let’s lift one another up. If treating another person wrong makes you feel good then what’s wrong with you. Come on we have to do better.

Really not caring what people think of me when I say that we have to stop living in the past unless your intent is to make things better otherwise doing so is just useless.  What are doing in the black community?  Why are we still hung up on the complexion? What is wrong? We have sisters walking around hating the skin that they are in. Who’s responsible for this? When are we going to be responsible for our own actions?  All black women are gorgeous our lips,  our noses, our foreheads, our hair texture and our sexy curves the same things that our very mothers own as well. It’s time for us stop this nonsense seriously something has got to give.