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The other day I convicted myself I wondered what it is about me that I instantly turn into a detective. Why I just can not accept things at face value? I guess with everything that I have been through I simply can not help it. Especially when it comes to opening myself up to love again. I don’t want to risk my heart being broken or looking like a fool.

Not trying to make myself seem so special but I always come across people who try to make it their mission to prove who I am really, I’m liked” Really Bro how would you know me better than I know myself?” One thing about me I am very kind hearted and so that makes me an easy target.  People tend to take my kindness for weakness. I know that I am God’s creation therefore I am under His protection. No matter what happens I won’t change who I am because of people.

I will admit that I have trust issues at one point in life I didn’t want to. Admitting to having trust issues sparks characteristics within a person that they never knew existed. Let me explain further I do not believe it’s okay to go through a person’s things, have passwords etc if a person needs to do all of that then perhaps it’s best to end the relationship. My trust issues are with my heart and words whether a man is being genuine or not.

The one only that I have learned noone can convince a person not to hurt you if they want to justify why it’s okay to do so. Just pray that they are exposed for what and who they are to avoid unnecessary heartbreak.

A person who won’t be alone to heal is selfish Yeah I said it. It’s not cool to use a person to help you get over pain that’s not okay. For me I am willing to be alone as long as God sees fit I WOULD NEVER inflict any pain on someone else. God doesn’t like ugly and He does make people pay for their messed up way. No I am not trying to speak negativity on people still one can not treat a person wrong expect not to be punished for their behavior.

My hopes are for us all to find love with the right one and as far as for me playing detective I never will stop doing it. Nothing is going overboard when it comes to heartbreak I rather be alone. I know that God has my Boaz even if it takes a couple more years of waiting I will. Because I know that once my Boaz arrive I will never have to play detective again. All of my Boaz words will match I won’t have an uneasy feeling about him. He will do everything not to break my heart. I won’t make him feel uncomfortable because of doubt. Let’s face it a seed of doubt has the power to grow into the biggest oak tree.

Determined to not allow doubt to rob me of my Boaz or loneliness for that matter. Being lonely is the reason for a lot of bad relationships people aren’t patient enough to wait on God. Word to the wise you can’t be with the right one if you are with the wrong one. Mr. Or Mrs. Right now will ruin who you are truly destined to be with. The right one will not interrupt what you have no one can see if you are unhappy they just know that you are unavailable. I don’t know about anyone else I know that we are worth the wait.

 

 

You Say

I put my heart on lock

You have the key

This is what I want to believe

As a mature woman

I feel life is too

Short to play games

Don’t  start something for nothing

Building a future with someone

Should not be done for fun

Other people hearts are involved

If you are hurt then

Allow yourself to heal

It’s not a big deal

If you feel that you have found

Love again if it’s real

It will not go anywhere

Don’t hurt someone else

Or cause unnecessary stress

If you are not ready

Don’t do it

It won’t be a real commitment

You say that you love me

You say that you will not

Make me angry or hurt me

Love is something that

I do not take lightly

Thus the words I Love You

Should not be thrown around freely

I want to believe what you say

But I don’t want to

Experience heartbreak

If what you say is true

And it’s proven valid

I will love you

Do what I am suppose to

Which is support you from

Here to the moon and beyond

We can do this arm and arm

Heart to heart

We can set the sky ablaze

Make others amazed

And they two become love crazed

I will make you

My prayer warrior, my lover

My King, My everything

Willing to do anything for

Each other cause it’s a team effort

I will not go away

I’m here to stay

We can do thing

You can believe every word

That I say

 

 

 

Grrrrrrrrrrr

Nothing grinds my gears more than a person’s love for money. Money this money that. See when a person is like that one can never have enough of it. Take the money away and what are you left with. The value of our American dollar is losing it’s value. I just pray for people who’s minds are clouded with dollar signs.

Most times when people love money so much they can not and do not have love for anything else. When a person is sick in a hospital bed money is the last thing that they are thinking about. Sooner or later everyone is going to die and we can’t take the money with us.

Money can not buy everything. Many times when people talk about money so much they actually are trying to compensate for something else that they are missing. I once heard a story about a guy who loved money so much nothing else mattered not his wife or his kids. One day he asked his wife if she felt loved by him and she told him no. He replied “Why not I have bought you so many things how could you not know how much that I love you?” Money can’t buy love. He had no clue at all.

People will throw money around as a way to try to impress others then they get upset when that’s all people want from them. For me I don’t have to be rich to be happy money doesn’t control me. I thirst for the love from God almighty He will give me all my children and I need. Greed doesn’t hold a place with me. The best things in life are free yet they are priceless. It’s something to think about.

1 Timothy 6:10

For the love of money is root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.

Tameeka’s Lovely Day

Yesterday was a beautiful day of course everyday is blessed, Yes! My birthday was absolutely awesome I received an huge amount of text messages, phone calls, inbox messages, emails and posts on my wall. It’s nice to feel loved that’s why  love was created.

Second day of my new age and it’s time to gain more insight than ever before. Want to let you guys in on a secret I love blogging it’s helping me to polish up on my grammar and dust the cobwebs off my brain getting the creative juices flowing. Yeah!!!

It’s so exciting and I am emancipating about what God has in store. I am super, duper pumped. My goals for Be Lifted is to talk about the things that are thought about in positive and encouraging way. I still want people to feel uplifting vibes when they read my blogs and listen to my podcasts these things are essential. Very ready to add to my vision with God in control the outcome will be wonderful always. Blessings to Everyone!

 

Skin Deep

My brother my brother seriously

Some of you claim to care

About what’s happening

Within our black community

Yet some are you guys insults

Are never ending

Everyone of us are free to love

Who we choose and it has

Nothing to do with any of you

The only thing that any of us

Are obligated to do

Is pull and uplifted one another

In our community

Some of you guys needs to develop

More of an understanding

Be more loving

God has much to be

I am ready for what He has for me

Therefore I am not worry about

What other people think

Anyway negativity comes off

As a bunch of noise

So I will treat it as if

I have Van Gogh’s ear for music

Recently my mind and heart

Had an epiphany

It was as loud as an

Mozart No. 41 symphony

How can some of you claim

To say that you are madly in love

With a special loved one

But can not see others happy

Com’on now some of you guys views

On interracial dating went

Out in the 60’s

Get real

What exactly are some of your guys deal

You will not steal my joy

Black White Asian

We are all human

Can some of you black brothers

Explain to me how it is that

You say that appreciate a sister

For what’s on the inside

Yet you can’t get pass the outside

We are all the same underneath

Try looking beyond the skin color

How can we move forward

With this backwards thinking

Before you think that

I am a sister who is hurt or scorn

Let me stop you right there

I want what I want

By attacking me or others

Who dates like me

Show you don’t care clearly

No one can rain on my parade

Rattle my cage

Nor get me to change my mind

According to what you guys think

I’m throwing negative thinking back

Like a boomerang

Love was created to be learned

Then shared and cherished

With the one that we adore

Regardless of their color

I thought with all of the books

And advanced technology

That it would make people smarter

Have I held onto too much hope

Giving people so much of

The benefit of the doubt

As deep as space

That’s requires looking

Through a telescope

Judging me according to

My preference is not fair

I get asked questions

Like a questionnaire

Millions like a millionaire

Some brothers say that

They have all the answers

And not one of them can

Stop a person from being single

I want a white knight

That’s what’s right for me

Have him sing the lyrics

Of “Her” in my ear

By Majid Jordan

Going “I’m on the way

To finding out exactly

How to treat her right

Another day and I’ve been waiting

But I’ve been waiting

My whole life to find

Someone like her”

A woman longs to

Not feel as if she’s invisible

Much how some brothers

Treat us sisters

Women get  tired of hearing

Words of hate

Thinking that we have to accept it

Is a huge mistake

Mistreatment is becoming too familiar

It’s something that isn’t deserved

A woman seeks one who

Will see her as a beautiful creation

One that embraces

All of her imperfections

Without any objections

One who is attentive

Has an ear that hears

Her words and receive

Them as part of

Understanding communication

Mere venting and not calling

It meaningless ranting

See the truest love

Is one that’s beyond

Skin color and what any

Human eyes can see

Know that what will be will be

 

 

 

It’s My Birthday

Today is my birthday and I do not take it lightly at all. Birthdays in my eyes are a blessing everyday that I open my eyes are a blessing. There are people who made plans and the plans did not get completed.

Thinking of going into my forties would start so much anxiety in me. My mother passed away one day 44 and she did not see it. She was kept heavily medicated and so she never opened her eyes. Other people in my family passed away in their early forties as well. I miss my mother everyday there isn’t one day that passes by that she doesn’t cross my mind. There is a hole in my heart and it can never be filled. I would not want my sons to feel that pain ever especially my youngest who has autism. When his grandmother passed away that’s on his father side it devastated him it took a lot of work getting him to understand. He would go to a window look up to the sky and ask God to send his grandmother back. He’s gotten a lot better now when we prays he tells God to tell his grandmother hello. That’s why I am taking good care of myself by eating as clean as I can. I want to be here as long as I can. Yes people who are no longer here to complete their plans however what’s most important are the people who were left behind that miss them.

Yesterday I had a friend tell me that God told her to tell me to write down the desires of my heart and then pray about it afterwards. I did it of course I know that God will do what He sees that’s fit for my children and I. I’m just thankful and grateful to be alive. Thank You Father God for all that You have done, still do and will do I trust You.

Staying On Track

Staying on track it seemed like it was a major task all of this week there were situations that have come along to make me question what I am doing. Well I refuse to do that. What is meant for a person to do not everyone will understand as long as you do that’s all that matters. I enjoy blogging it’s not a hobby to me if it can inspire or help one person that is a success to me.As it’s said one will never know what being good hearted is until one does something without looking for anything in return. My dream isn’t to make it to Hollyweird way too old for that however I am old enough for the dream to do God’s Will.

You ever look at a track how it may bend but it’s still the same track. Situations may come along and try to throw you a curve however it’s okay. Nothing can stop for me from the things that I have have started to do. Have you seen an oak acorn? Look at how big an oak tree gets. Whatever it is that God has for me I will have and do what I must to get it. If I have to give myself the same pep talk over and over I will as well as scriptures. Two scriptures were placed on my heart strongly.

Matthew 6:33

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

Philippians 4: 6-7

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

 

Keeping It Real

I have heard some people say that it isn’t being fake if you deal with a person that you don’t like. To me it is being fake and  there should be an age limit on being fake. Being an adult is understanding that not everyone is going to like us and that’s okay. As long as God loves us it’s all good.

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