We Are Beautiful

Recently everywhere I turn

I see men of different races

Including my very own

Making it seem like

Black women are the least desirable

Men like Chris Rock and

Steve Harvey speaking about

The kinds of men who love us

I can’t take it anymore

Our black is beautiful

Every day many of us struggle

With situations that

We should not have to endure alone

We are mothers

Who are also filling in as

The role of father

This situation has gotten old

The worse part is when we

Are made to feel like

We are somehow responsible

For receiving the hurt

That we don’t deserve

It’s so absurd

One of the stupidest things

That  I have ever heard

There’s a 72% percentage

Of absentee fathers

Look at the numbers

These men choose

To not be bothered

It doesn’t take a math whiz

Or a rocket scientist

Last time  I checked

It takes a man and a woman

To make a baby

Is there any other ways

I’ll wait

Lord knows that  I am a Christian

I always turn the other cheek constantly

Most black women are forgiving

About the situations that helps

Many of us to feel incomplete

Dealing with things like certain men

Who are filled with deceit that cheat

Lacking the understanding as to

Why some men would rather mistreat

Good women in a heartbeat

As if it would kill them to

Commit faithfully

In spite of black women circumstances

Defeat is not a part of our vocabulary

We always push ourselves hard

Like a star athlete

There’s a lot more to us

Than what people think

I’m telling  you right now

On us don’t sleep

We are constantly striving and evolving

Every word that  I speak

Is concrete

I can produce receipts

Say what  you want about me

Turn up the heat

I will not surrender or retreat

Can’t continue to listen

To all of the bull

Like how some of the wounds

Of black women

Are self-inflicted

I just don’t understand it

I do know that black women

Are over being taken for granted

As well as being blamed for this

Got me like

Alanis Morrissette

Isn’t it ironic

Don’t you think

Some black men

Speak of wanting black women

To hold them down

When they have nothing

Yet when some of them get on

Their feet

They treat their women and

Very own children

Like pot holes in a street

Then have the nerve

To question why we are angry

Really?

Please

Spare me

After awhile all of this becomes

So annoying

Some of you have no concept

Of loyalty

As long as black women

Are going along with the program

Everything is hunky-dory

However once we wake up

And stand up things are

A different story

Oh and don’t get me

Talking about the subject of dating

Black men was the first to

Put cream in their coffee

This is after slavery

At least that’s what mother

Used to tell me

May her beautiful soul

Rest in peace

If black women

Date outside of their race

Immediately we are accused

Of self-hate

In addition making it seem

As if men of other races

See us as mere fetishes

Like we are nothing

More than sex objects

I’m so sick of the disrespect

When will you guys open your eyes

And realize that

When our community is hurting

No one benefits

And no wins

Because we all suffer in the end

Things comes back in a full spin

I won’t stop talking about this

It’s a promise

Like Mc Hammer

I’m too legit to quit

Refusing to conform

To what seems to be the norm

Because it’s awful

Black women we deserve love

Beyond measure

We are a treasure

Keep in mind that love has no color

This mindset opens up our options more

Always remember this number

One thing and that is our value

Is not found in negative

People’s words

Black women are powerful

Even when we stand alone

We are so strong

Black women we are beautiful

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Blessing Our Food

One of the things that I am most proud of is how my boys have a relationship with Christ. We pray together and we take our time when we connect with Christ. 4G lightning speed is great but that doesn’t apply to grace. I don’t care how hungry you are take  your time and show God his proper respect. We have food to eat therefore we are blessed.

Where does grace come from? Well  I will tell you blessing food is a tradition that most Christians follow. Jesus Christ gave thanks and blessed the food at the last supper (Mark 14:22-25).

22 And as they did eat, Jesus took bread, and blessed, and brake it, and gave to them, and said, Take, eat: this is my body.

23 And he took the cup, and when he had given thanks, he gave it to them: and they all drank of it.

24 And he said unto them, This is my blood of the new testament, which is shed for many.

25 Verily I say unto you, I will drink no more of the fruit of the vine, until that day that I drink it new in the kingdom of God.

Everytime my sons and I place food into our mouths we give thanks.  Father God thank You for always making away when there seems to be no way at all. There are people who aren’t able to eat thank You for allowing us to be able to. Please help my sons and  I to never take anything for granted.

My Greatest Gifts

Merry Christmas to Everyone!!!

I’m not crying the blues however being a single parent is tough that’s a reality. All  I want like most single parents is for my parenting skills to have the effects of a two parent home. I love my two sons with everything that  I have. When  I write papers in class  I always speak of how the ultimate gift of parenting is how your children turn out and how they choose to raise their children like how they were raised.

This year  I was blessed to be able to give my sons some great gifts still  I was going to have a talk like  I always do with my youngest son about Christmas. As  I have shared my youngest has autism, so things have to be repeated a lot until he grasps it. I walked in the bedroom with my youngest and he goes Jesus the reason for the season. The tears just started to stream down my face even with his disability he understands what Christmas is what a awesome gift that was for me to receive. I just want to thank God everyday  I pray for the best for my sons one of the things that  I want them to have the most is for them to have a relationship with Christ. I have instilled into my children that without Christ we are nothing so never leave Him out of anything. It’s not Happy Holidays, Xmas, it’s Merry Christmas always, Christ is to be kept in everything always. When we allow God to lead our paths we can’t go wrong and things can only go right.

The second gift that  I receive was a letter from my oldest son he wrote:

I love you mom

Merry Christmas mom your love is more powerful than a nuclear bomb. You’re better than the rest. You are a fighter and a great provider. You are so smart. You get A’s on you school work and I am proud to call you my mom. I pray that you have lots of success because you deserve it. Merry Christmas mom I love you very much!

I just want to thank Christ for all that He has done and what He continues to do. God is the reason why I made it this far in life and with raising my sons.

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It’s My Birthday

Today is my birthday and I do not take it lightly at all. Birthdays in my eyes are a blessing everyday that I open my eyes are a blessing. There are people who made plans and the plans did not get completed.

Thinking of going into my forties would start so much anxiety in me. My mother passed away one day 44 and she did not see it. She was kept heavily medicated and so she never opened her eyes. Other people in my family passed away in their early forties as well. I miss my mother everyday there isn’t one day that passes by that she doesn’t cross my mind. There is a hole in my heart and it can never be filled. I would not want my sons to feel that pain ever especially my youngest who has autism. When his grandmother passed away that’s on his father side it devastated him it took a lot of work getting him to understand. He would go to a window look up to the sky and ask God to send his grandmother back. He’s gotten a lot better now when we prays he tells God to tell his grandmother hello. That’s why I am taking good care of myself by eating as clean as I can. I want to be here as long as I can. Yes people who are no longer here to complete their plans however what’s most important are the people who were left behind that miss them.

Yesterday I had a friend tell me that God told her to tell me to write down the desires of my heart and then pray about it afterwards. I did it of course I know that God will do what He sees that’s fit for my children and I. I’m just thankful and grateful to be alive. Thank You Father God for all that You have done, still do and will do I trust You.