hope

No Just When

Lord I want You

In my life

Because I need You

In my life

No just when I am hurt

No just when I am alone

No just when I have been wronged

Not just when I am confused

Not just when I am feeling blue

Lord I need You

Because I am nothing without You

I have tired to do things

On my own and my way

And the result is always

One of an bad ending

When I should have consulted

You in the beginning

Past mistakes taught me

About having pride

And an ego

I will not let You go

And I ask You to

Please forgive me

I know better now

I see clearly

Lord I want You in life

For always

Not just when things

Are going wrong

But when things are going right

I know the good is because of You

So I want You

To be apart of everything

My happiness

My children

My money

My future marriage

My victories

So when I feel the need

To call on you every now and then

It won’t be  like it’s from a stranger

But more like a friend

 

Myths About Black Women and Interracial Dating

There is a lady who’s book that I read on my Kindle her name is Christelyn Karazin the book is called Swirling. I follow her blog and her on Youtube as well. Anyway she had a fascinating video recently where a man had his theory on why black women dated white men. His theory was quite laughable to be honest. He claimed that black women are into thugs and that once they where done being used they would go and seek a white man. What I can’t understand is why everyone can accept the gay lifestyle but come up with ways to belittle black women that date outside of their race. As far as I am concerned everyone has there reasons as to why they dated outside of their race however one thing is clear it’s our choice.

I grew up without my father in the home, a neighborhood that was 70/30 black and white, mostly black schools, yet my first love was a white man not black. I am not a scorn black female just like many black women aren’t as well. So all of the hateful theories people can keep them it’s not their lives. The world would be such a beautiful place if people were nicer and wished others well. Different circumstances brings different results are there people who get hurt by someone in their race and decide that they want to date out of their race sure. Still I know females who gave up on men altogether there’s no difference. Everyone has a right to make their own choices and we should be responsible believe or not we will have to answer for them later. People can get hurt by anyone of any race just like people can be love by anyone of a different a race if it’s meant.

Where Is The Love?

This week has been one of much loss Chyna the wrestler, Doris Roberts and Prince.Yesterday was an extremely sad day for me. Yes it was the day that Prince passed away but it was far more deeper than that. There were a few Christians ( by the way a few is too many) criticizing Prince come on the man is gone. Just because they no longer listen to secular music doesn’t give them the right to speak on the dead. I don’t care what anybody says. How would they like it if it were their souls that others were speaking on?

The name Christian has Christ in it some Christians really have me wondering whether Christ is in them. They have the judging part down to a science however lack other things like being humble Proverbs 16:19 Better it is to be of an humble spirit with the lowly, than to divide the spoil with the proud. No one should act so super spiritual that they forget where they came from. Otherwise that’s being self centered or vain whichever word you choose. Christians are to be merciful Matthew 5:7 Blessed are the merciful: they shall obtain mercy. Everything one of us has experienced loss so let’s have some compassion for others.

I will not pretend that I know where Prince soul is because I don’t. What I do know he died alone, there are millions of people who loved him and that God is the only one who came save him. How do any one us know where he is now? Some of the characteristics of certain Christians are that of the Pharisees and not of Christ. We wonder why so many Christians are slipping away or outsiders don’t want anything to do with our faith. As far as I am concerned the true proof of your walk with Christ is the number of people who come to you wanting to be saved. How many people have approached you? One thing is for sure negative words can’t saved Prince soul he has already passed on. We are to never forget that no one is too far gone that God can’t saved them and that includes Prince as well.

 

Don’t Get Caught Up

Growing up I had a dream of becoming a writer, DJ on the radio or a VJ on MTV. I love music I can not express it enough so my choices should not be a surprise. Well the VJ on MTV will never happen because they don’t play videos like they used to years ago. Then again who knows what God has down the line I’ll find out in time. As long as I live as long as we live anything I do mean anything is possible. One of the great things about technology and the internet it allows you to do things like blogging. So now I am doing a little of something that I enjoy and that’s writing.

Numbers can be a good and sometimes they can not be. They can place limits on things. Example at a certain age we expect to have certain things but what happens when things don’t turn out as we had planned? I get that stress sends an alarm off in our heads to make the proper adjustments still don’t panic. There are so many successful  people who didn’t  have it in their twenties Joyce Meyer ministry  didn’t  really take off until she was  in her forties. What would have happened if she had given up all because she didn’t she any progress at the time? Where would she be? Don’t give up especially when we have a dream and seems as if nothing is happening. Our dreams will happen eventually just don’t stop and don’t get caught up. Take the limits off even the sky is too short. You  never know when things will take off. Keep going! Keep pressing on!

Be Good To Yourself

One of the best way to be good to yourself is caring about the people who surrounds you. I always hear people say that they keep their circle air tight. Loyalty does not come in shapes if you think that they do you are making a mistake. Deal with people who will only lift you higher. Everyone is not meant to be in our lives. It’s important to not try to win over people who wants to see you lose. Have people that celebrate you it’s what you deserve. It’s  what we all deserve.

Pep Talk 103

Ahhhhh! Yes it’s Sunday. What comes to mind? Relax you can chill take the time to enjoy what you have been doing. Reflect on the week it’s like looking at a beautiful ocean. Most importantly enjoy our family and dear friends call them up or just text them it doesn’t have to be a special occasion just do it. Everyone likes to know that they are thought about and it feels good to makes someone’s day.

Hope For Love

Yes, we are loved 24/7 by Christ He shows His love by blessing our lives with our hearts’ desires. When it comes to love we have to be open to the possibilities. I understand that we all have our preferences which are fine as long as they hold hands with reality. My ideal dream man is white, smart, great smile, and at least 6’0 feet tall indeed that’s the one for me. I’m not ashamed to admit it love has not brought me much luck. It has not been that kind, it’s okay though I’m fine with that. It’s not God’s fault at all it’s on me totally it’s all about the way that I sought it out. My hunt was went about wrong we all know that when something begins wrong it will end up being wrong. Not one who cares for the saying ” It’s not how you start it’s how you finish” that may apply to some things but I don’t believe that it goes for love. Anyway when love is looked for it is not found true love happens unexpectedly.  Besides according to the Bible when a man finds a wife he has found a good thing. Meaning what’s meant to be needs no help it’s not the woman’s job to seek her man.Well I’m going to be a little cocky I believe God will give us what we want as long as it’s within His will.

In my life I have been in five serious relationships. I have never just dated or courted someone just got into a relationship instantly instead of taking it slowly. Hmmmm perhaps that is where I went wrong. It’s important to take the time to get to know a person. There could be red flags present but if one does take their  time they will go unnoticed. Now all of the relationships weren’t bad there were good times. In my opinion they are looked at as unsuccessful because I am not with anyone of them. Let’s face it longevity of a relationship is the ultimate display of success. I was twenty-one years old when I got into my first relationship. My first love was truly amazing he was white, smart, tall we enjoyed many of the same things. It seemed like I had hit the jackpot right out of the gate, Yaaaaaaay go me!!!!!! He was everything that I had ever wanted. Let me cover this before I take my story any further I do believe that love has no color. Chemistry is important as well has having things in common too. I am a black female and I have always have had an attraction to white men. Also the things that I have always been into made it so, I love all music it’s the love of my life. However rock and roll is my favorite music along with metal and alternative normally the black men that I come across that enjoy what I enjoy are usually into white women which is a story for another blog which I will be writing about in the near future. Back to the story at hand my first love and I were young so we were both inexperienced. My background of having an abusive father did not make things any easier either.

I admit my part in the failing of the relationship. To be honest I actually felt unworthy of love like not worthy of God’s blessing that was sent to me. It must be understood that a person who comes from an abusive background can sometimes make it hard for one to love them. People like us punish ourselves because it’s all that we know. Past abusive relationships plays a role in present and future relationships when not dealt with. Not bashing my past too much it helped to develop me into the woman that I am today therefore I am proud of my battle wounds they aren’t scars. I’m healed completely of my past very thankful for that. In fact the way that I view my other four relationships aren’t in a negative way they taught the goodness of the first one. Also one of the relationships gave me my  two handsome sons who are loved very dearly by me. The four relationships that I had give me an understanding of there purposes therefore they need no mentioning or elaborating on.

Right now I know and I am very confident that I am ready for love. I know that God will send  me the right husband. Life has taught me what I need to know that I am worthy of the beauty of love. Regardless of my choices, my mistakes, my hurt, my pain, my past, my fear I will not give up on love. No one should give up on love it adds meaning to everyone’s lives and we all deserve to smile. For my dedication to love I wrote a poem it’s titled “Won’t Give Up On Love” it goes:

Although I have been dealt with what some may consider to be an unlucky hand

I haven’t given up on one the things that I desire having the most and that’s love

I long to feel totally complete with the love who embraces who I am

Unique yet difficult at the same time

One who I would give my all for even if it makes me feel uncomfortable

I am willing to step outside of my comfort zone as long as the feelings are mutual

I desire a king because I am a queen

A queen longs to take care of her king in ways that all the money can’t buy

I want to be the one that he can talk to about whatever it is that’s on his mind

His desires, his fears always backing him in his dreams big or little

Never allowing doubt to shadow his God given potential no matter what

I will always remain loyal and true blue

Most men and women have been hurt

They have been wounded and scarred from pain

Even when they move on the hurt remains

Vowing never to allow themselves to trust or love again

But they can’t give up, we can’t give up on love

On being united with their kings or queens

Joined together can you say love royalty

Love should never be taken lightly or for granted

Love sometimes is treated like a bad habit

Some people give love a bad name which is something that it doesn’t deserve

All because some of the people chose to give their hearts

To a complete stranger as it

It would be placed in danger some people have a nerve

Still there’s hope it doesn’t matter that life threw them a curve ball

Just have to wait and be patient their love problems will be solved

Love can make the coldest heart warm

When God made man in His image

He thought that man should not be alone so God made a woman

He intended for a woman to be a help mate

She is to relieve some of his weight and to kiss her king’s wounds

And forgive his mistakes

Willing to do whatever it takes to seal their love’s fate

Never making him feel like less than a champion

The greatest love comes from above

With God as the navigator He will guide us towards things

That are greater that includes the mate that is meant for us

All we have to do is trust so with that being said

I won’t give up on love