poem

My Promise To You

I can’t tell you

What the future will bring

But I can tell you

This one thing

I love you

And I will always take really good care of you

This is my promise to you

No matter what you do

I mean this from my heart

Honest and true

Like a mama bear

You are my little cubs

I will not go anywhere

This I swear

You and your brother

Are the ones that I am always thinking of

Willing to give you two the

Love that you deserve

Everyday that I live

My love becomes greater

For you and your brother

Are a part of me

When I look into you guys eyes

I see me looking back

I promise to guide you

Through every storm

For every achievement

That is ever born

I will be there to cheer you on

I will always be strong

Never will I ever let you see

A tear that I cry

I don’t ever want you to

Worry or wonder why

You deserve the very best

And nothing less

So that means no stress

God gave you both to me

For that I am blessed truly

With all the joy that you two bring

To my heart

So I will do my part

By making this promise to you

I will always take great care of both of you

I give my word honest and true

Thank You

At times the holidays can deliver mixed emotions for me it’s suppose to be a joyous time but I already know that someone somewhere is going to try to make it lousy. Research is a awesome way to gain knowledge but where did the books that we get our information get it’s information from? It’s just a thought. Why can’t people believe what they want and agree to disagree? For me Christ has brought me through so many times being homeless with my kids, pains in my stomach, raising a child with autism alone, heck raising two children alone, and so many other times. As I have said I’m not here to preach but to let my experiences speak for me. Not trying to be deep I just want to thank Christ for dying for me…..dying for all of us.

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He is risen

He did it for you

He did it for me

So that we all

Could be sin free

Washed cleaned

A new beginning started

When He went to Calvary

Performed the biggest

Miracle and blessing

A wonderful gift to us

We were given

All of our faults

Have been forgiven

He has risen

He is risen

Praise God

Praise God

He Is Risen

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Conscious

Many times we speak of

Forgiving or people not being bitter

Letting go and moving on

Well that’s all good

And that’s great too still we

Must always own our mistakes

Yes things happen

And not always on purpose

Still it’s very important

To be conscious

And have common decency

To make choices that won’t

Have to result into things

That requires looking

For forgiveness

We all have to be conscientious

By not hurting a person in the first place

Treating our moves like chess

Thinking of the outcome

Two or three moves prior

Let’s be honest

The things that hurts anyone

The most were things

Where the person who hurt them

Knew better but chose to

Do otherwise

But down the line

Most times become the advocate

Of forgiveness

When all it takes

Is having the mindset

Or crossing a street

Looking both ways

Before making a move

Treating people as we

Would like to be treated

Or another rule

If you don’t want it done to you

Then don’t do it to someone else

Let a warning signal go off in your head

Like the ringing of the Liberty Bell

And not expecting people

To get over what was done

Because we were in the wrong

So let’s not be so quick

To speak of forgiveness or grudges

Let’s first be careful and diligent

So we don’t have to seek mercy

From someone who’s hurting

All we have to do is care

About what we do in the first place

 

 

 

 

 

Broken Covenant

When I use to think of what we had

It would make me sad

After all marriage is a special thing

A covenant with God

When a lady and a man

Becomes wife and husband

Number one we must understand

True love isn’t planned

Love is precious

And so beautiful

Especially when the love is equal

So if you are not ready

For love then don’t accept

A person’s heart

When they offer it to you

Another important thing

A marriage can not survive

With interferences from the outside

Also decisions should not be made

As if single is your status

They must be made together

With a prayer to God as the glue

To hold them into place

Praying that you gain understanding

As I have one day

I don’t blame God

And I don’t blame you

I played a role in the demise

Of the marriage too

It’s a shame what we planned to prosper

Has been reduced to a poem

Which consist of nouns and verbs

On a piece of paper

I am no longer sad or mad anymore

Because I now know that regardless of the

Outcome God has a plan

So now I understand

I no longer question why

I know that God has greater

For me in my life

Looking on the bright side helped me to realize

Where I messed up and that was not keeping

God first

See human beings are like candles

Under pressure we burn out

But God is like the sun

The light never goes out

He knew us before our births

He has a master plan

For our lives

But if you don’t consult the master

There’s a chance that things won’t work

Pride will have a person looking from a window

On the outside wishing that you were inside

Pride kills happiness it leaves you with regret

So if you have a ego lose it

It’s not worth it

I have grown to be so much wiser now

I no longer cradle ideas about marriage

That are fables

Only God can keep a marriage stable

Because He is able

All we have to do is lay

Everything out on the table

I have never had so much confidence

About letting go

I truly hope that you find

The wife that is meant for you

I don’t hate you

How can I

I once loved you

Besides harboring hate has no use

It only keeps me from reaching

The next level that I am trying

To get to

This isn’t drama it’s truth

Being honest is the right thing to do

As you can see I’ve looked

At me I have taken ownership

Of my mistakes

Can you

 

 

 

 

 

I Accept Who I Am Proudly

One thing that I don’t do

And that’s reminisce

About memories from my past

Unless they are ones

That are filled will bliss

Or they in some way

Contribute positively to my present or future

Life is way too short to be miserable

When I look in the mirror

I look beneath the surface way deep

And I am proud of what I see

A woman who has not allowed her past

To be a crutch or to define her

Holds her head up high with pleasure

Busy looking towards the future

As a matter of fact she runs to it

To catch it

Everyone has parts of their lives

Where they wish they could change

Forget or revive

Mine is no different

My life has not been perfect

I had an abusive husband and father

A wonderful mother who died young from cancer

Three beautiful sisters but we still argue

Two sons with a man that God didn’t not send

Unfortunately I made him my husband

One of my sons has autism

Goals and dreams that I have yet to finish

My face still has an occasional blemish

A marriage that has been demolished

But I refuse to wallow in sorrow

The past can not rob me of a great tomorrow

It will just go bankrupt

Cause my past won’t get a loan

No matter how hard it tries to borrow

My past has served it purposes

And I have come to terms of

What was meant happened

What wasn’t meant didn’t happened

Wishing and hoping won’t change it

Regardless I will not stress

I still feel that I am blessed

Through all the mess

Being negative there’s absolutely  no sense in it

I have accepted my life 100%

And I am proud of it

 

 

 

My Boys

One of the things that

I am most proud of being

Is a mother

My two greatest creations

Were added to this nation

Wonderful young men

Growing up I

Came from a family of girls

So that’s what I wanted

But God always knows best

He blessed me with sons

They mean so much to me

I’m grateful to be their mommy

One is so funny

The other looks just like me

I could not have asked for more

Looking forward to sharing

Magical moments to look back on

We have many things to explore

Smiling faces, hugs, kisses and more

My two boys

Whom I truly adore

 

 

 

Carry It Gangsta

Goodfellas, Griselda Blanco and Al Capone

When a relationship is over

You’ve got to carry it gangsta

At some point in most of our lives

We will have a break up

Gone are the days

When marriages lasted a lifetime

I’m not saying don’t work

Things out if you can please do

However staying in a relationship

When you are unhappy

Makes no sense

When you have done all that you could

It’s best to let things go

Will it hurt

Of course

But why hold on

Most times when relationships

Comes to an end

There were signs that it was going to

Like more arguments

Less time spent together etc.

So don’t be scorn

Don’t be bitter

Especially if you once loved the person

Where did the hate come from

Anger only hurts the

One that’s angry

Healed people heals others

Just because something comes to an end

It doesn’t have to be

On a sour note

There are many things that ends

Books but you don’t stop reading them

Movies but you don’t stop watching them

It’s all about how you look at it

One doors closes

And another one opens

So when a relationship is over

Don’t hate or mope

The way to cope is to

Carry it gangsta

 

 

 

 

Sister Power

Having a sister

Is like having

A special bond

Like no other

Sister Sledge

Made their pledge

To being a family

Of amazing sisters

It’s a part I love

To take happily

I love my sisters

That’s right all three

Sometimes we may

Not always agree

Still they are mine

And that makes me happy

It’s a big deal

For that I am delighted

I love seeing sisters united

Like the Pointer Sisters

I’m so excited

I’m not saying  that

Having a brother is

A bad thing

I’m just saying

That sister power

Is like no other

It’s one of life’s

Greatest rewards

Like a sweet melody

By Mary Mary

The Clark Sisters

Have been showing

Their sister power

For years

Sisters bonds are dear

It’s so clear

There’s nothing like

Sister Power

 

 

Love Sick

Like having pneumonia or the flu

I’m love sick for you

A stuffy head

That’s filled with all kinds of thoughts

A dry cough that

Leaves my throat tickly

My stomach swarms with butterflies

Sneezes that are accompanied with blessings

Wheezing that leaves me breathless

Your love has me feeling helpless

A chest that holds a warm heart

I’m overflowing with so much love

You give me fever

My body is burning

My soul’s on fire

Your love takes me higher

It’s only you whom I desire

Yearning constantly

All these feelings are ones

That I have never known

A new chapter in my life has been born

Your love is in a class of it’s own

Even though these feelings make me

Feel so uncomfortable and vulnerable

They are still very much welcomed

And they help me to feel alive

My senses are tingling

What a sensation

All of my symptoms

Thankful for love

What a wonderful creation

I want it to stick

Don’t want no cure for it

Cause I am love sick

And I love it