No Just When

Lord I want You

In my life

Because I need You

In my life

No just when I am hurt

No just when I am alone

No just when I have been wronged

Not just when I am confused

Not just when I am feeling blue

Lord I need You

Because I am nothing without You

I have tired to do things

On my own and my way

And the result is always

One of an bad ending

When I should have consulted

You in the beginning

Past mistakes taught me

About having pride

And an ego

I will not let You go

And I ask You to

Please forgive me

I know better now

I see clearly

Lord I want You in life

For always

Not just when things

Are going wrong

But when things are going right

I know the good is because of You

So I want You

To be apart of everything

My happiness

My children

My money

My future marriage

My victories

So when I feel the need

To call on you every now and then

It won’t be  like it’s from a stranger

But more like a friend

 

No Frowns Allowed

The last people who should be sad, mad or have a frown on their faces are Christians not with all the good news that we know pertaining to God. Why be angry?  Why be sad? I for one just don’t understand if He did it before He’ll do it again. God don’t do things on our time but when the time is right.

With all that God has done we should be bring sunshine to someone’s cloudy day. Uplifting the spirit of a person that is in need.Make as many people as we can smile it’s not about us but about God. Let’s spread some sunshine!

My Top Five Christian Hip Hop Songs

I love music so much someone people enjoy peace and quiet. Well I  have to listen to music all day everyday. As I have shared I enjoy listening to all kinds of music. Today I wanted to share my top five songs by a few of my favorite Christian Hip Hop artist. I know what you are thinking “What!!! Tameeka you were able to narrow down your top five!!!” Yes I was able to do it.

5. Go Bananas- Brotha Dre, Edify and Nia

4. That’s Me -Canton Jones

3. J.I.F.E -Da’ T.R.U.T.H

2. Bizzle – Stand Up

1. Sevin- Enemywithin

When you get a chance give these songs a listen I  highly recommend them.

Online Dating and Christians

The Bible says Proverbs 18:22

Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the Lord.

Online dating is another way to be able to cast your net far an wide to reach your ideal mate. Still we didn’t have the internet years ago and many people still found their true love. Which clearly shows that God is in control it’s best to consult Him always. Back to the scripture should a woman try online dating that would be considered looking right? Still on the other hand how can a woman be found if she’s not getting out to be found? Ruth traveled and found Boaz although finding love wasn’t her reason for moving everything just fail into place when she did.This subject has many questions to explore and everyone should know by now that I am ready to find the answer. And I’m definitely open for a debate not on the Word of God that’s not what I do. I do believe in trusting God and He will guide us to do what’s best.

My Youngest Is One Of My Heroes

With the last day of April upon us it stirred feelings up within me. April is the month of Autism Awareness and my youngest has autism. Next Saturday he will be thirteen years old officially a teenager. My youngest has come a long ways from not being able to talk very well until he was five or six. He was seven when he was completely potty trained. There is a lot to caring for a child that has a disability it requires a whole lot of patience.

It was hard at first accepting that my son was different I didn’t want to face it at all. No one wants to accept that something is wrong with what they created. My sons grandmother pointed it out put I refused to pay attention to what she said. She wasn’t mean about it she never was a mean person. She was trying to raise my awareness. Finally I took my son to the doctor and sure enough it was found that he was autistic. I was devastated in the beginning let’s face it the black community aren’t the biggest supporters of mental health. Growing up people believed that kids needs to be beat but some required more like medicine. Mental health awareness have come all a way from the 1300 when it was believe that a person was possessed so holes were drilled into a person’s skull as a way to let out supposedly evil spirits.

My youngest is one of my heroes he’s so sweet, giving and very caring. He and I share a very strong bond. I’m so proud of him. He’s growing everyday. We enjoy the same music and movies. His two favorite movies are Three O’clock High and Never Been Kissed. Yes he loves Never Been Kissed because he says that he enjoys happy endings. I have come a long way too. Many things have helped to  change me into the person that I am today and my son is one of them. I love him so much and I am so very thankful that God gave him to me. Looking forward to what the future has for my son and know that there will be many blessings to come.

Self-Hatred

We get hung up on how

The celebrities go crazy

Overboard on plastic surgeries

Michael Jackson and Lil Kim

As well as many others of them

The simple truth is

Self hatred can run deep

Anyone of us could

Become a victim of it

It’s more than about

A person’s skin color

It could even be

A eating disorder

Not being happy

With oneself on the inside

So it shows on the outside

Wanting to be skinny

Have lighter skin darker skin

Or a big booty

The list is never ending

A person who wants to be taller

Slimmer waist and face

Wrinkle free, long hair, pointer nose

Things deeper beyond fancy clothes

A person who does anything

So one can change

One has to fix was wrong

On the inside and then

The outside will match

It’s all about the love

That a person has for themselves