SecondChances

Bittersweet

I’ve prayed about it

I’ve allowed God to handle it

I’ve made room to forgive

It’s over

It’s finally over

Now I can

Start to experience closure

Trying to describe how

I’m feeling right now

It’s like trying to describe

The taste of water

As I have gotten older

I have realized that

Trying to reflect back on memories

It’s like physically trying to look

Over your shoulder

I’m just not that flexible

I’ve tried my very best

Yet in some cases

Ended up with less

There’s no need to cry over spilled milk

There’s absolutely no sense in it

I’m still blessed regardless

I just look at things as

Life learned lessons

Many things took place

Between you and I

You have no idea

Of how many tears

That I have cried

I really tired

Deep down inside

Apart of me feels like it wants to die

Yet there’s so much

That I would like to forget

I know that you had a purpose

After all we have two great kids

Here I go again

I have to stop this

I have to begin

The healing process

I have to do it

I have strength

It’s weird still

A small part of

This situation I can’t grasp

Am I still in love

Yeah right don’t make me laugh

The way that you act

Your middle name should be

Jackass or dumbass

Because you played a huge part

Of helping to put something that

Could have been special into the past

I won’t blame you totally

I also share responsibility

This ending is bittersweet

I came across a thought

Of you I actually smiled

And I felt a tear roll down my cheek

Yet I’m fine if we never speak

You have to leave

Something behind in order

To go forward

The hardest part of moving on

Is putting the pieces

Of your broken heart back together

And be brave enough to love again

It’s finally the end

It’s a tough pill to swallow

Tough to accept that we didn’t work out

A fresh start isn’t bad

I know that God has my back

So there’s no need to be sad

A Second Chance

God is a God of second chances still when is it okay for us to offer it. When should we be open to giving something or someone a second chance.  There are so many scenarios and it’s best to look at both sides of the coin.  First and foremost  pray to God  for me many situations in my past would have went smoother had I done this. As everyone can tell I’m an optimist and a realist as well it’s like driving you have to be an offensive and defensive driver. Another thing about me is that I can be incredibly stubborn it takes a lot for me to give up on anyone or anything however when I do I’m done.

We have to evaluate what’s worth giving something another try and what isn’t. It takes removing the blinders and being completely honest about a situation. For instance like being in a relationship or marriage and our mate hurts us. Now let’s be clear anytime we take a chance in love there’s a chance of getting hurt maybe not intentionally it still happens. I guess it’s about looking at what took place and  filtering whether it was a choice or a mistake. Like with cheating it is a choice always still what made the person cheat its a selfish act absolutely I believe in scratching beneath the surface always. Did the person who cheated feel ignored?  Were they deprived of intimacy? Is the person who cheated selfish? Whatever answer that you come up with is how you move forward.

Forgiveness is something that we must do it’s not just for the person who hurt us but for us as well. When we forgive it sets us free from bitterness. We should not confuse forgiveness with trusting a person again. To forgive is to not hold a grudge and trusting leaves room for the opportunity of a second chance. Just because we forgive a person it doesn’t mean that we allow ourselves to be hurt again.